Family members sometimes tease me as the person who never gets riled. I don’t think that never is accurate, because when anger comes out of me it is not a pretty sight. I’m glad I have an understanding wife who has seen the rare sight more than others.
I do celebrate the low blood pressure and general calmness I feel, however. I know that not carrying anxiety is far better than living with it.
Interestingly, the more reasons I have had to be an anxious person in the middle of a 10 year battle for my wife’s health, and the more opportunity I have taken to claim and live my faith, the more calm and nonplussed I have become. It has bred several results:
I don’t stress about whether you are more theological right or wrong in your views. Your desire to be faithful in service to others has become more important in how I assess a potential kindred spirit.
Winning doesn’t matter. Survival does. If I survive intact today, it is reason enough to celebrate.
Ambition has disappeared. While I remain driven to work hard, preach with passion and keep developing knowledge that leads to wisdom, it doesn’t have to be from the top of an organizational mountain.
I’m finding a lot of scripture that confirms this understanding. I wish I had claimed their promises much, much earlier. Here is one I consider especially significant.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of god, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philipipans 4:6,7)
-mark l vincent